January 1, 2019

Veganuary 2019 | Intro + Goals

I’m doing Veganuary 2019 bitchez

Woah, that was a bit weird having to write 2019. Bit surprised I remembers to be quite honest….Moving on…

If you’ve followed my blog a while you’ll probably have seen my many ventures into veganism and although I’ve made a lot fo changes I never quite got there completely so I thought Veganuary would be the perfect time to give it another shot at the whole hog.

For a bit of background I was vegetarian pretty much my whole life but atleast from the age of about 8 or 9 so I’m not a massive meat eater at all. I did briefly go back to eating meat when I was pregnant with Lily to maintain my iron levels but I steadily went back to being vegetarian as Lily got older.

I have always had a very unhealthy relationship with meat, it brings me a lot of anxiety mainly surrounding contamination and germs so that’s good old OCD rearing it’s ugly head but it made it easy to avoid meat for the majority of my life, I find it really difficult to eat it without feeling anxious anyway. I wish I didn’t have that anxiety though because part of the reason I have ducked out of being vegan full time is because it’s really triggering so I’m going to need to be gentle with it and not pressure myself. I think this is something a lot of people who have had eating disorders of whatever kind in the past find difficult about changing their eating habits. I have spent so long trying to reduce my anxiety and “pickiness” around food and try and get to a place where I can see something, decide I want it and then eat it without hurdles and now I am reading packaging, having “safe” foods and food off limits again and I’m not sure how I’m going to be able to take that mentally but I’m willing to give it a go.

Current thoughts

Despite having tried going vegan several times before I feel strangely nervous, I’m not sure if that’s the right word but I’m feeling quite overwhelmed about it at the moment although I’m only part way through day 1. I think it’s because I’m going from challenge myself to one day a week to a whole month and I’m trying not to be super hard on myself but it’s proving quite difficult to not get stressed out about it. I have a food shop coming tomorrow though so I hope I will feel better about it all then when I have more than biscuits, potatoes and pot noodles in the house, haha.

I’m planning to document this month for my own sanity if anything, I feel like writing down how I’m feeling, any struggles I’m having or anything I have found easy even. I think collecting my thoughts and purging them on here will be quite cathartic and hopefully help me stay on track and not end up losing myself.

A few lil Veganuary Goals

Try a Vegan pre-packed sandwich from M&S
Make vegan mac & cheese
Try something from Tesco’s Wicked Kitchen range
Find plant milk I like
Make tofu scramble

Anyone else doing Veganuary?

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