February was bloody weird. I have absolutely no idea what goals I set myself in January or if I ever set any but I’m almost 100% sure I’ve not achieved any of them. No wait, I think one of them was to complete Veganuary and I fucked that not even a week in, classic me. Anyway, here are a new set of things I want to work towards this month in the hope that I can dig myself out of this rut.
This past month me and Lily have done quite a bit of baking. By me and Lily I mean I do the baking and Lily sits and raids my sprinkle collection. We have made pineapple upside-down cake (which she hated so much she made a song about it), dinosaur cookies which were a hit, dinosaur cupcakes (see a theme there?), chocolate chip cupcakes and we have some books we picked up from the library and ingredients waiting to become yet another cake.
No one probably noticed but I took a bit of time off at the end of last month. I think I needed it given the fact that I haven’t really
After putting aside more time to read I ended up using that time for other shit, typical Mum fail really but I have a couple of books ready to go on Audible, All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven and Close To Home by Cara Hunter for those wondering and I really want to get stuck in because I keep hearing amazing things about both of these! My to be read pile is creeping higher and higher too and Marie Kondo would bloody hate me tbh.
I have always had mental illnesses at the forefront of my life and for years now I’ve just felt like I am constantly always either having a panic attack, avoiding things that cause me anxiety or trying to distract myself from anxiety of some sort and I can’t fucking deal with that shit anymore so I basically lost my shit at my doctor (not in a wildly violent way, more a breakdown “I can’t fucking cope anymore” way) and she prescribed me some stuff. My being proactive is to get my shit together enough to take my meds and see my doctor and not let my mental health slip down the list of my priorities anymore.